You Are My Sunshine

You Are My Sunshine

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I want to dive into something real quick before I talk about the pictures above. I always want to take you guys who read my blog a little bit into my life that’s not on Instagram or other social media. I feel more personal on my blog and the ability to be a little bit more vulnerable. Doing music and really trying to pursue it, and writing songs everyday and singing my heart out… trying to learn as much as I can. Trying to learn everyday how to better myself as an artist and my craft. I LOVE learning about music and writing. It brings me so much joy. Throughout this whole process and still going obviously, I’ve learned a great deal about what I really want in life and what really matters. My perspective on a lot has changed since doing it and it has really opened my eyes to people and to people that care about you. With my blog I want to inspire you guys and motivate you to achieve your dreams and goals and be the BEST version of yourself. In this day and age it’s so easy to get caught up in what everyone thinks about you and other people’s opinions, it’s so easy to let that affect who you are and what you can achieve. Now, I’m not sitting here and telling you I know it all and all the ways to not let this affect you and/or ways around it, because I’m still trying to find ways to ignore it, but ┬áthe best way I can put it is nothing anyone says can lessen your personal worth or lessen your talents/what you’re doing.

I feel like I always end up rambling when I get an idea of what I want to talk about, but I hope you guys know that by now and are okay with listening to me ramble. We took these photos last week and they came out SUPER nostalgic, almost in a way where these are the types of photos you look back on in a decades time bringing you back to a feeling, bringing you back to that specific time and place. Oh you guys Nostalgia is one of my favorite feelings. It’s so insane to me how you could be sitting in a field one day with a good friend, while the sun is setting and just get an overwhelming sense of nostalgia. All these feelings bring you back to a time and place where you once felt something that made you so happy. A memory that you can’t replicate, It’s like taking you back in a time machine and the whole world stops. This feeling is a feeling we all should reflect on as it’s happening because it almost puts you in a meditative state. I feel like nostalgia happens to remind us in this crazy world that goes by so fast of what’s really important in life and what really should matter to us, because a the end of the day all these memories we are making every single day are all moments and one day we will look back on and wonder if we would have just lived in the moment, would we remember it longer, or would it be an infinite memory that we always remember not just in feelings of nostalgia. Next time you find yourself in a moment you want to remember for the rest of your life. Take a minute, breathe and take everything in that’s around you. I guess I take these moments so seriously right now because I’m in an in between phase in my life where I’m realizing a lot and not quite where I wanna be yet but also working my ass off to get there. So much is changing around me constantly that it is hard to take in those little moments that you want to remember forever that, I have to remind myself to do this all the time. Also so many little things are happening around me in the midst of all of this that I want to remember forever and I know for a fact are some of the best memories I have within the last two years.

“Isn’t it funny how day by day everything changes, but when you look back everything is different. “

 

The jacket I’m wearing also is a HUGE nostalgic piece. My mom painted this for me and the crazy thing is while my mom is extremely talented and artistic she also painted a tank top for me when I was like 8 of a moon and the faces on them are almost identical. Which is SO crazy to me. I think we might start designing more of these with different designs because she’s also designed one with a phoenix on the back, so stay tuned they might be for sale soon:)

 

 

 

 

 

 

Feel The Fear.

Feel The Fear.

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Well here we are, I’m gonna tell you guys I’m scared shitless for trying to achieve a dream I’ve had since I was 6. No one ever talks about it,

Let me tell you why, now most people don’t say they are scared shitless, but I’m in this weird place where I’m excited as hell to be doing things that I’ve dreamt of and doing things that I love but I’m also so scared. Being scared in a place like this consists of being fearful to let people down and not be as great as I want to and hope to be. I don’t want to let people down, like my parents and everyone that I’m working with. I also don’t want to let people down that look up to me and people that I inspire. Most importantly I don’t want to let myself down.. and I think that’s one of the biggest things. Having the courage within yourself to achieve your dreams and goals and enough fire under your ass to never give up and never stop, no matter what gets in your way.

We are all scared to some extent at this point in our lives, I mean at any point in your life, with whatever you’re doing, It’s okay to be fearful, just don’t let it get in the way of doing everything you can to achieve your goals. It’s almost like you get this fluttery feeling in your chest like when your excited but also nervous. It’s been feeling like that to me and at times it’s SO annoying. Over the past couple months I’ve definitely become more of a homebody trying to stay focused and not let myself get distracted by all other things in life, because it can be draining to always be ON. By that I mean you can’t always be 100% for everything. You may want to be but you’ll just end up draining yourself and that version of you isn’t one you want to end up like 24/7. I just recently listened to a podcast by Katy Bellotte and she was taking about how this generation is the “Burnout” generation. Which is so true and you guys should all listen to it. She’s basically saying how we are the generation that doesn’t stop and we literally keep going and going and going till we either exhaust ourselves, burnout or get in bad mental states because of how much we are doing and committing ourselves to get done… to make something of ourselves. We have become the generation that doesn’t sleep and thinks “It’s Cool” which let me tell you is draining in itself. Don’t get me wrong I am all for work your ass off and do everything you can to achieve your goals and dreams, but don’t forget to take care of yourself along the way. The repercussions for not taking care of yourself are far worse than making the time to do it.

 

” This letter is to you.

The you that’s had a rough week. The you that seems to be under constant storm clouds. The you that feels invisible. The you that doesn’t know how much longer you can hold on. The you that has lost faith. The you that always blames yourself for everything that goes wrong. To You.

You are incredible. You make this world al title bit more wonderful. You have so much potential and so many things left to do.. You have time. Better things are coming your way, so please hang in there. You can do it. ”