And again, here we are and it’s been a while.
I tend to shy away from the world when I’m trying to deal with a lot at once, and that’s OK.
I believe that 2019 has been a year of testing your will for so many people. I feel like this year has been uncovering deep emotions and making people really see life from a much deeper place.
I really and truly believe that everyone on this planet is trying their best and trying their best to be good people. I feel like we are all here trying the best we can, to make good decisions, to make our friends and family in our lives happy, to be there for people while also pursuing our dreams and achieving our goals and on the other hand feeling emotions; Happiness, Sadness, Anger, Fear and Love. Sometimes these emotions can also all come at once and then dealing with that and trying to explain everything that goes on in your head to people, but finding the people that really and truly listen. To lose ourselves and find ourselves all over again.
When you think about it from this perspective it really makes you realize why we shouldn’t be judging people and in this day and age where it’s SO easy to do… we should be making an effort to stop ourselves. Yes, it’s so easy to share so much online and so many of us do, but with what we chose to show, how can even that be judged… You don’t know what that person goes through on a daily basis with what they don’t show and heck maybe what they do show and get judged for is making them feel better? Judging other people’s lives and what they deal with won’t do anything for you, instead of judging so much, focus on what you could be doing better for yourself instead, because who really cares… except the people that matter and the people you may be inspiring, who look up to you.
I’ve learned a great deal this year about vulnerability and being vulnerable. First off, why is that such a scary word and why is it so hard for us humans to be vulnerable? Because we are SO deathly scared of being hurt, we are so scared of sadness and letting our deepest selves be seen. I fall under both of these a great deal… Now yes I try and really share my heart with the world and people closest to me but I mean getting down to the nitty gritty with people and sharing your WHOLE SELF is really where love is truly found. This ties into ‘Doing your best’ because I feel like if we were to share these parts of ourselves more often with people it would open up that door to people understanding each other a little bit better and why we are the way we are and how we see the world. I feel like anxiety and depression have gotten so much worse in our generation because we are seeking help outwards by going to therapy and having to seek help… WHICH IS NOT A BAD THING. AT ALL, but what I’m getting at is we are so condemned to keep things to ourselves and scared people will runaway if we really tell them what’s going on in our lives that we get to this place where we have to seek help outside of the people that really matter, because we can’t share on an emotional level. Why, Because we are scared of getting judged? Because we are scared they will think something is wrong with us? These are terrible excuses as I am learning first hand for myself. Going forward, We all as a community should make the effort to try. To try and break that emotional barrier with people. To really and GREATLY try our best.
“Always be the best person you can be. Be kind even when you’re tired. Be understanding even when you’re angry. Do more than you’re asked, and don’t ask for anything in return. Don’t silently expect anything either. Listen when someone talks and really listen too, stop just thinking about how you’re going to reply. Tell people that you love them and that you appreciate them. Go our of your way to do things for people. Be the greatest person you can possibly be and when you mess up, make up for it in the next moment or minute or day. One thing you should never do? Never spend your time trying to prove to anybody that you’re great, your actions will speak for themselves and we only have limited time on this earth, don’t waste it.
If someone doesn’t see your light, don’t worry. Like moths, good people are attracted to flame and to light and they will come.”