Feel The Fear.

Feel The Fear.


Well here we are, I’m gonna tell you guys I’m scared shitless for trying to achieve a dream I’ve had since I was 6. No one ever talks about it,

Let me tell you why, now most people don’t say they are scared shitless, but I’m in this weird place where I’m excited as hell to be doing things that I’ve dreamt of and doing things that I love but I’m also so scared. Being scared in a place like this consists of being fearful to let people down and not be as great as I want to and hope to be. I don’t want to let people down, like my parents and everyone that I’m working with. I also don’t want to let people down that look up to me and people that I inspire. Most importantly I don’t want to let myself down.. and I think that’s one of the biggest things. Having the courage within yourself to achieve your dreams and goals and enough fire under your ass to never give up and never stop, no matter what gets in your way.

We are all scared to some extent at this point in our lives, I mean at any point in your life, with whatever you’re doing, It’s okay to be fearful, just don’t let it get in the way of doing everything you can to achieve your goals. It’s almost like you get this fluttery feeling in your chest like when your excited but also nervous. It’s been feeling like that to me and at times it’s SO annoying. Over the past couple months I’ve definitely become more of a homebody trying to stay focused and not let myself get distracted by all other things in life, because it can be draining to always be ON. By that I mean you can’t always be 100% for everything. You may want to be but you’ll just end up draining yourself and that version of you isn’t one you want to end up like 24/7. I just recently listened to a podcast by Katy Bellotte and she was taking about how this generation is the “Burnout” generation. Which is so true and you guys should all listen to it. She’s basically saying how we are the generation that doesn’t stop and we literally keep going and going and going till we either exhaust ourselves, burnout or get in bad mental states because of how much we are doing and committing ourselves to get done… to make something of ourselves. We have become the generation that doesn’t sleep and thinks “It’s Cool” which let me tell you is draining in itself. Don’t get me wrong I am all for work your ass off and do everything you can to achieve your goals and dreams, but don’t forget to take care of yourself along the way. The repercussions for not taking care of yourself are far worse than making the time to do it.


” This letter is to you.

The you that’s had a rough week. The you that seems to be under constant storm clouds. The you that feels invisible. The you that doesn’t know how much longer you can hold on. The you that has lost faith. The you that always blames yourself for everything that goes wrong. To You.

You are incredible. You make this world al title bit more wonderful. You have so much potential and so many things left to do.. You have time. Better things are coming your way, so please hang in there. You can do it. ”





Plaid and Khaki

I’m so terribly sorry it’s been so long! December was a crazy busy month for me and as much as I tried to blog it just didn’t work out, not to mention the weather here in Washington has been complete crap! I usually love gray rainy days but I am just absolutely sick of them! I am in some great need for sunshine.. Moving on to my outfit for another gray day…
I was very inspired by British blogger Zoe Sugg also known as Zoella. I noticed her wearing plaid scarves a lot lately and of course her disco pants as always so It gave me some inspiration for my outfit today. LOVE HER! Go check out her blog and her youtube channels they are absolutely AMAZING!
I am wearing my new favourite jacket that I recently got from Bluefly.com which is an amazing website And I can’t believe I hadn’t found them sooner! This website has all kinds of designer brands, but they are discounted, it’s really quite great! The brand of this jacket is BCBG and it is made so well I purchased it for just $122 I also used a discount code (GET15OFF) It came with a detachable hood, but I took it off for today, I just love all the gold details on this jacket super cute, since I love wearing gold jewellery as well!
This scarf has been another one of my staple things this winter season, I got it from Target, but I’m not quite sure if they have it or not still! It’s so warm and cozy and I love that it’s plaid cause it really just dresses up an outfit from blah on this gray day to OOOHH!
As for my pants which I wear ALL the time, they are my faveeee! They are the black disco pants from American Apparel, They are High Waisted and super comfy!!!
My boots are from Nordstrom BP. These are the comfiest booties ever!! The heel is quite taller too, but I could wear these all day walking in the city and my feet would be totally fine! Thank you Nordstrom 🙂
As per usual My purse that I wear all the time is from Marc Jacobs, But I bought mine new from Ebay. Wayyy cheaper!!:)
I’ll be back very soon with a winter transitioning to spring lookbook!:) Love you guys and hope you enjoyed the outfit today!!

JACKET: Bluefly
PANTS: American Apparel
BOOTS: Nordstrom
SCARF: Target
BAG: Ebay

Plaid Diva

Happy October everyone! This is probably one of my favourite months of the year, and I’m so excited!
There are so many different coloured flannels, but I found this one the other day in Macys, On sale might I add and I just had to have it! It’s so comfy and cozy, the colours are GREAT as well! There are many ways that you can wear a flannel but casual like this is my fave! Now this may not seem so casual, but I have a hard time just dressing “Casual” I can’t just wear jeans, a Tee and sneakers, I don’t know why I just always have to be a little on the dressier side, and there’s nothing wrong with it. Actually in High school I never once as they said it “scrubbed out” Ever. It’s just not in my nature.
At the moment I am LOVING gold things, I just think they look so great against my skin and pairing them all together. I have two necklaces on that I have been wearing like no tomorrow and they are both from Stella & Dot. The littler one is a dainty gold necklace with an arrow on it and the long one is gold with a white tooth! For my arm candy I’m wearing the gold Michael Kors Darci watch which I got from ebay and the other gold chain like bracelet is from Forever 21!

SHIRT: Macy’s
PANTS: Black Disco Pants from American Apparel
SHOES: Target
HAT: Target

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