WHAT’S UP GUYS!!!!
So I have a few things I want to chat about today, one of them being this shoot( Posted below) has been published in Creators Magazine, which is SUPER amazing and I’m so thankful. Huge awesome milestone. I can’t believe it!!!
Alright moving on to some more important things. I’ve been wanting to talk about growing up and going through phases, but essentially finding yourself.
Let’s start in the awkward phases of middle school where we are going through puberty getting to know ourselves, getting to know our peers, finding your friend groups and finding out your hobbies. This stage is super important, at least it was for me. I’ve always loved the things I love from a young age, I mean from the age of 6 I was singing and dancing everyday, but I also watched as I grew up… I watched my moms style and her fashion and that really inspired me to love fashion. But then in middle school I really got into loving playing the guitar and singing covers of songs it just became my life. I would sing and dance in the garage at my house everyday. This phase was really about finding our passions. Now I know not everyone is the same in that aspect… sometimes it takes awhile and that’s okay. That’s what we always get so stressed about later on or getting things done by a certain age and having this timeline. It’s completely okay to not know too, and to take your time doing so.
When I started my blog which was in high school, so I was not really sure who I was. I really just started it because I loved fashion and I loved writing. My blog has never been about just selling things or doing it because everyone else is doing it. I started this back in 2013 and I’m SO happy I did. It has brought me so many wonderful opportunities and experiences. I’m so thankful and grateful these platforms exist. Reasoning behind my blog is that I wanted to inspire and motivate young individuals like myself to never let anything stop them from pursuing what they love. Growing up in a small town was really hard in that aspect because if you did something like this or sing/dance and want to pursue it you were crazy, or the odd one out. It is possible and doing what you love even if it may be scary or taking a risk despite the criticism you can do it. I’m that voice in the back of your head saying, don’t listen to what people think or their opinions should they be negative. Listen to yourself, listen to your heart. More importantly LOVE the life your building. LOVE every step of the way.
This brings me to my next point. Through every different phase of my life, and yours too. We are finding ourselves, we are finding what we like and what we don’t like. We are finding the groups of people we thrive around and the groups of people we don’t. We are finding the music that makes our souls sing. We are finding the styles of clothing and trends we love and things we don’t. People have said I do too much and to find one things and stick to that. Excuse me… but what?! Everything I do I love with all my heart. I love a lot of different styles, I love fashion and beauty and music. That’s what has made me the person I am today, I’ve learned that I’m not just one thing. I’m everything that I love built in one and again that’s what makes me… Me. That’s what makes you… You.
Get out there and build your best life. Don’t let anyone tell you any different.
Well here we are, I’m gonna tell you guys I’m scared shitless for trying to achieve a dream I’ve had since I was 6. No one ever talks about it,
Let me tell you why, now most people don’t say they are scared shitless, but I’m in this weird place where I’m excited as hell to be doing things that I’ve dreamt of and doing things that I love but I’m also so scared. Being scared in a place like this consists of being fearful to let people down and not be as great as I want to and hope to be. I don’t want to let people down, like my parents and everyone that I’m working with. I also don’t want to let people down that look up to me and people that I inspire. Most importantly I don’t want to let myself down.. and I think that’s one of the biggest things. Having the courage within yourself to achieve your dreams and goals and enough fire under your ass to never give up and never stop, no matter what gets in your way.
We are all scared to some extent at this point in our lives, I mean at any point in your life, with whatever you’re doing, It’s okay to be fearful, just don’t let it get in the way of doing everything you can to achieve your goals. It’s almost like you get this fluttery feeling in your chest like when your excited but also nervous. It’s been feeling like that to me and at times it’s SO annoying. Over the past couple months I’ve definitely become more of a homebody trying to stay focused and not let myself get distracted by all other things in life, because it can be draining to always be ON. By that I mean you can’t always be 100% for everything. You may want to be but you’ll just end up draining yourself and that version of you isn’t one you want to end up like 24/7. I just recently listened to a podcast by Katy Bellotte and she was taking about how this generation is the “Burnout” generation. Which is so true and you guys should all listen to it. She’s basically saying how we are the generation that doesn’t stop and we literally keep going and going and going till we either exhaust ourselves, burnout or get in bad mental states because of how much we are doing and committing ourselves to get done… to make something of ourselves. We have become the generation that doesn’t sleep and thinks “It’s Cool” which let me tell you is draining in itself. Don’t get me wrong I am all for work your ass off and do everything you can to achieve your goals and dreams, but don’t forget to take care of yourself along the way. The repercussions for not taking care of yourself are far worse than making the time to do it.
” This letter is to you.
The you that’s had a rough week. The you that seems to be under constant storm clouds. The you that feels invisible. The you that doesn’t know how much longer you can hold on. The you that has lost faith. The you that always blames yourself for everything that goes wrong. To You.
You are incredible. You make this world al title bit more wonderful. You have so much potential and so many things left to do.. You have time. Better things are coming your way, so please hang in there. You can do it. ”
I’m gonna start this post by saying the universe works in mysterious ways.
These past couple weeks of the beginning of the New Year have been very testing. I have gone through lots of moments of stress of not believing in myself and overthinking EVERYTHING. When you want something so bad you literally just feel it in your heart, almost like this burning flame that never goes out. When you decide to pursue something so crazy all this fear sets in and I’m not totally fearful but it’s definitely there. I think mostly it’s just fear mixed with excitement, but there’s also this fear mixed with not wanting to let people down and let myself down. You have to have a lot of faith in yourself and the most important person to believe in you is YOU. You have to block out all the negativity and all the people telling you otherwise and just do it for you.
Today I was wrapping up my singing lesson and driving home and as I was driving home I saw this Hot Air Balloon across the way and I got this weird feeling. It was a good feeling but weird, almost like Nostalgia or De Ja Vu, but not quite either of those either. I’m someone who is greatly affected by energy and astrology and I believe heavily in it, which leads me to believe the universe is always giving you things at moments when you need them the most. I know most of you are going to find this so silly and so weird, but I looked up the Metaphysical meaning behind Hot Air Balloons and here’s what I came upon…
” Hot air balloons are messages of ascension in spiritual form and what is needed at this point. Be open to the changes now happening to you, move forward as you are guided. Opportunities are now coming forward for you to climb aboard. Dreams will begin to flourish and you are ‘asked’ to consider the expansions that are being offered to you.
Do not fear the changes taking place, as these are for your highest good at this time. If you find that any frequency presents itself to you in a way that pulls at your energy rise above it. ”
I’ve been super into the boho style lately! Especially clothes at American Eagle, they’ve been super cute lately and this shirt comes in two other colors of which I also bought! haha They go with everything though! It’s super hot where I live right now so shorts is a must and I don’t like those SUPER short shorts which are every where right now, I like them to cover my butt and these ones are from Abercrombie! This necklace also just screams boho to me and goes with everything, it really spices up an outfit, same with this hat that I find myself wearing all the time from American Eagle, LOVE IT!
NECKLACE: Pier 1