I want to dive into something real quick before I talk about the pictures above. I always want to take you guys who read my blog a little bit into my life that’s not on Instagram or other social media. I feel more personal on my blog and the ability to be a little bit more vulnerable. Doing music and really trying to pursue it, and writing songs everyday and singing my heart out… trying to learn as much as I can. Trying to learn everyday how to better myself as an artist and my craft. I LOVE learning about music and writing. It brings me so much joy. Throughout this whole process and still going obviously, I’ve learned a great deal about what I really want in life and what really matters. My perspective on a lot has changed since doing it and it has really opened my eyes to people and to people that care about you. With my blog I want to inspire you guys and motivate you to achieve your dreams and goals and be the BEST version of yourself. In this day and age it’s so easy to get caught up in what everyone thinks about you and other people’s opinions, it’s so easy to let that affect who you are and what you can achieve. Now, I’m not sitting here and telling you I know it all and all the ways to not let this affect you and/or ways around it, because I’m still trying to find ways to ignore it, but the best way I can put it is nothing anyone says can lessen your personal worth or lessen your talents/what you’re doing.
I feel like I always end up rambling when I get an idea of what I want to talk about, but I hope you guys know that by now and are okay with listening to me ramble. We took these photos last week and they came out SUPER nostalgic, almost in a way where these are the types of photos you look back on in a decades time bringing you back to a feeling, bringing you back to that specific time and place. Oh you guys Nostalgia is one of my favorite feelings. It’s so insane to me how you could be sitting in a field one day with a good friend, while the sun is setting and just get an overwhelming sense of nostalgia. All these feelings bring you back to a time and place where you once felt something that made you so happy. A memory that you can’t replicate, It’s like taking you back in a time machine and the whole world stops. This feeling is a feeling we all should reflect on as it’s happening because it almost puts you in a meditative state. I feel like nostalgia happens to remind us in this crazy world that goes by so fast of what’s really important in life and what really should matter to us, because a the end of the day all these memories we are making every single day are all moments and one day we will look back on and wonder if we would have just lived in the moment, would we remember it longer, or would it be an infinite memory that we always remember not just in feelings of nostalgia. Next time you find yourself in a moment you want to remember for the rest of your life. Take a minute, breathe and take everything in that’s around you. I guess I take these moments so seriously right now because I’m in an in between phase in my life where I’m realizing a lot and not quite where I wanna be yet but also working my ass off to get there. So much is changing around me constantly that it is hard to take in those little moments that you want to remember forever that, I have to remind myself to do this all the time. Also so many little things are happening around me in the midst of all of this that I want to remember forever and I know for a fact are some of the best memories I have within the last two years.
“Isn’t it funny how day by day everything changes, but when you look back everything is different. “
The jacket I’m wearing also is a HUGE nostalgic piece. My mom painted this for me and the crazy thing is while my mom is extremely talented and artistic she also painted a tank top for me when I was like 8 of a moon and the faces on them are almost identical. Which is SO crazy to me. I think we might start designing more of these with different designs because she’s also designed one with a phoenix on the back, so stay tuned they might be for sale soon:)
I’m gonna start this post by saying the universe works in mysterious ways.
These past couple weeks of the beginning of the New Year have been very testing. I have gone through lots of moments of stress of not believing in myself and overthinking EVERYTHING. When you want something so bad you literally just feel it in your heart, almost like this burning flame that never goes out. When you decide to pursue something so crazy all this fear sets in and I’m not totally fearful but it’s definitely there. I think mostly it’s just fear mixed with excitement, but there’s also this fear mixed with not wanting to let people down and let myself down. You have to have a lot of faith in yourself and the most important person to believe in you is YOU. You have to block out all the negativity and all the people telling you otherwise and just do it for you.
Today I was wrapping up my singing lesson and driving home and as I was driving home I saw this Hot Air Balloon across the way and I got this weird feeling. It was a good feeling but weird, almost like Nostalgia or De Ja Vu, but not quite either of those either. I’m someone who is greatly affected by energy and astrology and I believe heavily in it, which leads me to believe the universe is always giving you things at moments when you need them the most. I know most of you are going to find this so silly and so weird, but I looked up the Metaphysical meaning behind Hot Air Balloons and here’s what I came upon…
” Hot air balloons are messages of ascension in spiritual form and what is needed at this point. Be open to the changes now happening to you, move forward as you are guided. Opportunities are now coming forward for you to climb aboard. Dreams will begin to flourish and you are ‘asked’ to consider the expansions that are being offered to you.
Do not fear the changes taking place, as these are for your highest good at this time. If you find that any frequency presents itself to you in a way that pulls at your energy rise above it. ”
Hello Lovelies. It’s been a while and let me tell you life has been crazy. If you ever wonder what I’m up to definitely check my Instagram or snapchat.
I wanted to write this blog post to give you all a little life update because so much has happened since January let alone since my last post about Mexico.
Let me start this off by saying, the music industry is not for the faint hearted. At the age of 21 I did not think I would be pursuing a passion I’ve had since the age of 6. I always thought I had to have everything accomplished by a certain age and was always told what to do… or what people think I should do with my life. No one has everything figured out by any age. Especially 21. I’m learning so much about music, about people, about people who I associate myself with and about myself. I’ve already had some really stupid experiences with people trying to take advantage of me.. A Women in the industry who’s doing everything on her own. That’s me. I threw myself into this industry by myself not knowing a single thing about it other than I can sing/play guitar and write songs. Coming out on the other side as of recently, I’ve learned a heck of a lot about Music business/laws/copyright and people’s intentions. I have a huge heart and I’m way too trusting of a person and people like to take advantage of that and tell me what to do/what to sing… etc..I’ve learned if I want anything done in this business, to get it done on my own. The last couple months I’ve been beaten down, been too nice to people I shouldn’t and have been doing pointless shit for people who want to use me. I never thought I would be in the situation until I realized what was happening. It’s taught me a lot. Only until recently have I realized my worth as a person and an artist. You have to honestly count on yourself and believe fully and completely in yourself and what drives your soul and your passion. You believe in yourself more than anyone else can. You know what you want, the road may not be easy but have full faith that you’re on the path you are suppose to be on.
“Doubt kills dreams more than failure ever will”
I kind of just want to leave it there and leave you all to take that for what it is. More than anything I can’t wait to share my music FINALLY with the world. It’s going to be nothing you’ve heard and completely from scratch… and we will leave it at that. I feel like I can finally conquer the world today and Finally feel like I have the power over my life and no one can tell me what to do unless it’s to help me, better me as an artist or constructive criticism.
Again, I can’t wait to finally share my music with the world. Coming Soon.